ok. so i just went and turned in an application and i get home and start doing some math in my head [which that alone causes me enough anxiety] and i put it all together...
remember when i said i was starting to freak out about not having a job or income.....well "starting" is definitely not the word for what i am feeling now. i hate to sound sooo down but unless i start working, lets see.....NOW! i will most likely not receive a paycheck during the month of november. before december rent is due. and i already owe sarah half of novembers. for a high anxiety, low positivity situation i am actually o.k. i know it will not cause my life to expire (although friday was a close encounter - different story, different time) its just going to be hell - financially - for the next couple months and most likely into the new year. but i have plans. yes i have plans, plans that can start just as soon as i start receiving income once again. so hopefully...........SOON! this blog is sooo dramatic. anyway, i gotsta go.
i'm still standing ~ codes
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