thats right.

so i changed the title of my blog. i figured along with my template and everything else in my life...it needed to change with the times. in transition...i am in transition from my previous to my new (and hopefuly better) and the choices i make now are more important then they have ever been cuz i can't afford to fuck it up anymore (fines double...)

no one told me or prepared me for the mixture of happiness and lonliness i now live though. which is probably a good thing cuz i would have turned and ran screaming like the girl i almost was. i guess i did catch a glimpse of it that night in orange when my thoughts refused to cease until the gold and deers blood finally kicked in. i will finally be judged this thursday. hopefully those fines will not multiply.

so my picture friend from the lower carolina called me this eve. and we talked for almost an hour but i had to go cuz i had to pee (again) and my fat ass had subway waiting for me. we talk well though for not even knowing eachother. there was talk of him flying here or me flying there. i am not sure how serious to take it but i would love to fly down for missy's 21st! missy if you read this i'd love to be there! i think it would be a blast and a nice refresher for me since it would be almost right in between now and camp.

claire was going to come up and visit me last night but we live in iowa and in iowa ice can cover everything in a matter of 4 hours. claire and i were on the phone talking about her coming at like 2am and then when i woke around 6am there was ice covering everything. and i guess it was even worse in de mo cuz i heard it from my friend casey who spent new years there and claire. i was a little bumbed cuz i knew once i stepped out of my "new house" and almost fell on my ass that claire most likely wouldn't be able to make it up here. so instead after work i watched a lot of movies and bought things* on line and ate a lot of food. cuz i like to eat a lot when i don't drink and go out all of the time....well i like to eat even more so than i already did. darrel and i watched "the legend of bily jean" last night. i haven't seen that movie for years and i loved it when i was a kid. i don't think i have ever watched an entire movie with someone who was on the phone. as in darrel wasn't here we were on the phone with eachother the entire time though. i guess its kind of the same thing for him since hes blind....those were his words not mine! ;]

i have tomorrow off so i get to finish these films from my childhood and my mothers childhood. that'll be great. i still need to go shopping for other people (and myself) and i want to go to java for me, writing, and reading time. i think its supposed to rain again possibly so that will suck a lot cuz it will most likely cancel most of my plans.

anyway, i think i am going to take a bath. yes a bath. and hit the sheets. i'll be back some other time.
love ~ cody tyler