really...

so this is what i saw (and snapped a picture of) the morning after my staff christmas party - while in the car with tim ("tooth") as he was taking me back to my car - after i stayed at his house - in his bed- both stripped - right before he told me that he was going to lie to t. about me staying there but let him know we spoke...

really?

really.....

thats the last "tooth" lie i will ever be involved in. thats his problem and always has been, he only tells part of the truth, or what he thinks he should tell. if you really want him back "tooth" why are you sleeping with 20 year olds and getting naked in your bed at your house with me (of all people)? and then making sure you tell me that you will not be telling him... nice. real nice.

i have been kinda struggling with this ever since then cuz he once again sucked me back into his life of lies and deceit... i have been debating whether or not i should tell t. but don't want it to come off as me trying to get back at "tooth" cuz that is not what i would be doing. i worked really hard to get this mess out of my life and tim's lies out of my world and in one night i was sucked right back into them. it would be different had he not made a point to tell me he was going to lie to t. t. and i don't even speak so i don't know why he felt the need to tell me. personally i think he saw how the whole night didn't affect me in a bad way (it was just closure - and really easy for me thanks to all the cats and some other things...ehh....) so he felt the need to gain control and try to hurt me or what he thought would hurt me cuz it had worked in the past.

so hopefully this entry will be enough for my conscience and i won't have to contact t. i just don't want anything to do with their world anymore. especially their world of lying to eachother and trying to one up or hurt eachother.

that's all...

got truth?

love ~ me