whad i tell ya'

did i not say i was going to have an excellent time this past weekend. well it was successful! Completely, in many ways....yeah, some of you know what i am talking about. but as it was completely successful it has left me completely confused. i have been in a state of, ".....buh?...." since i got back into town.

it is a combination of things. and i will write pretty much all of them so i trust the readers that i am close and not close to to shut the fuck up....a.k.a. keep your mouths shut. and for some of you, or atleast one of you....please try not to be upset with me.

so on friday i met with jared and meghan and we hung out at jareds before we went out. some of you know that i used to have, what we jokingly call now or did, an affair with one of jareds roommates. well the evening was going smoothly. we all just get rocked cuz its my girl meghan's birthday right. well the guy i had an affair with, we'll call him dude for shits and giggles, and i haven't continued the affiar since august. and we just kind of stopped talking, keep in mind we only talk when i am in town. i like the kid. i respect him. he's intelligent, hes adorable. we were walking home together and one of us brought up the topic of our affair. we joked and had honest conversation about it. it was good. we all go back to dudes house for afties and hang out for a while. dude eventually kicks whose left out and we go to bed. and this is where it starts and where i knew it would start. i told him that i don't just sleep with people anymore. we talked for an hour or so and basically all i am saying is the affair is back on. atleast on friday it was. but we actually talked about us and about why he isn't with anyone and all that. and i'm left thinking i might really like the kid. i told him that if we lived in the same town we probably would be together and he said, "yeah, but you don't live here!" so.... thats one thing i'm confused about.

other things i am coinfused about are: tanner, my life, what i have done to myself, not being able to see all of the people i want to see when i want to see them, dealing with last thing mentioned, seeing cute lilmike and him being nice to me even though i kinda' fucked him over and now we've emailed eachother everyday since, knowing that i made a mistake when i fucked over mike and now wishing i hadn't but its too late - atleast he is talking to me, everything, the boy i call dude, matty and how i didn't see much of him this weekend and i think he might be mad at me cuz of it, the fact that i have to list this off because melissa is demanding my (chat) attention and stealing my focus by making fun of me for not being able to multitask, "opri calls it multitasking"

i need to go anyway i have to go pick my client up and i haven't even dressed from my shower. i'll write a better blog later. i promise....

especially if CHRIS A.K.A. "FUCKHEAD from iowa city" WOULD EMAIL ME BACK SOONER. i'm enjoying our dialouge but i have a very short attention span. you need to fire back faster, yo! look, i even mentioned you in my blog by two different names.....you like? yeah, i know you like it! ;]
i'm out peeps.

luvens n' smooshens ~ co. d.

god, see i haven't even written about the 80's party yet!!! god i have so much to do....;]