my time is way overdue....

you know what frustrates me?

when people come up to me and say (after basically telling me that they want nothing to do with me in some way or another) "i know you hate me" or " why do you hate me" or they go through my friends and ask. its not hate. i don't hate anyone. its called "you made it very apparent that i was no longer needed. i know when someone doesn't want my time i don't give them my time. its not a conscious decision i make to hate you. its called i pay attention to the people i came with. my friends. so if i happen to not talk to you and we are in the same bar its because you didn't talk to me cuz most likely i just didn't see you. literally. unless i am looking for you i tend to not look at too many people at the bar....especially the gay bar. i wouldn't want to piss people off now! ;]

and another thing that frustrates me is when poeple stop talking to people just because they are dating someone. i guess gay boys ttruly believe that males just being friends just doesn't exist or is possible because they are so willing to just stop.

o.k. now on to the good stuff. i met someone last night. someone i kind of already knew but saw again for the first time in a long time last night. oddly enough i met him when i got home. the perfect setting for the real person to come out. and i'm not talking about anything that has anything to do with sex. as so many of you are automatically thinking right now. its not like that. he is a good person, with a good heart. he's going through some minor shit right now but he is going to be a.o.k. i love him. awe......

anyway, i'm off to the dreadful med class i have to take for my job. its so pointless but i have to go otherwise i have to pay for it myself. and that would just be dumb.

love me ~ cody