out of guilt came a reaction....

a phone call actually. one of the people i was talking about earlier (the one dating blah blah) called me today. didn't talk for hlong but it was oh so obvious why they called. they could ave called to argue my statement but they didn't. they called so that they can say, "see, i'm still talking to you even though i'm dating [insert name here] " wow. atleast he is trying. thats kewl.

so i think we discovered why the gay community in des moines hates me. we've come up with this : i take breaks in between dating boys. my boys don't run through like water like they do for most gay boys. and a boy doesn't become my boyfriend after one week. also if i just broke up with a boyfreind i don't jump right into another relationship and then call him my boyfreind after 3 dates. of course that being the reason is kind of a joke because gay boys are like that most every where i have ever been. its all good. i got my friends, the beautiful ones as i like to call them, you all know who you are. and none of them go through boys like dirty panties either. hey if thats your thing than right on. rock out with your cock out.

not that i am saying i am a saint when it comes to boys. when i'm bad i'll be the first to admit it. i was bad. and i am a runner.... but i don't run to boys. i used to in a different way. but not anymore. now i just find a way to run. or a reason. and these past few days i have been dying to. and i have, especially this past weekend. i've been bad. i admit. but i know so i will fix it. and thats what i am doing. that is most likely why i am so beligereant. incase you haven't noticed. i'm pissed at myself and dissappointed in people i love and that makes me beligerant. i'm not necessarily in a negative mood by any means. i'll still brighten your day, perhaps, but my mind will be busy planning my next step in life while i am doing so. anyway, i must get going. its time to go hang out with this really kewl 30 year old and get paid for it. my job is so effortless, except for the classes and trainings. good day.

love ~ cody tyler