OH I HATE DOING THESE....

but i guess its my fault since i haven't updated for so long.

here goes....

so britney was HOT! so hot. as in she basically masterbated on stage and there was basically sex on stage, and in my chaire in the audience almost too. but then i felt really gross because there were children like four seats down from me. but its official, i will poke the pop princess joke that is miss spears. one day.

i thought i was dying for about a week there. i had to go to the hospital cuz of my heart but things got settled. i think it is actually my lungs though.

I AM OFFICIALLY 2 WEEKS AND ONE DAY SMOKE FREE!! not a drag or puff or anything. and i've curbed my drinking considerably. which i think i owe in part to the next thing i am going to talk about....

i'm dating a school teacher. a vocal music middle school / some highschool instructor. don't worry hes my age exactly. its not like i'm dating some geezer sleaze teacher. hes really nice. hes not frieghtened by my past even though we are oppostites. hes been much more open and kind than anyone i have sluggishly attempted to date in the past year. we've spent a lot of time together already but we've talked about it and we are both on the same page. and a plus is that i'm pretty sure i don't have to worry about him throwing me aside cuz i'm not prettyboy fag enough. like the past 4 people i "dated." but i may have just screwed myself by saying that. who knows. i'm just letting it flow for once the way it wants to flow....and its flowing very nicely. and cody is being a very good boy. not jumping the sexual gun to soon. or at all yet. even though i wouldn't mind it. i go about things the right way now. way to go me!

on a side note i met a random t.v.8 news guy last night at the bar. one of the younger semi cute ones. he was really nice and cuter in person. don't worry we didn't perform any sexual acts in any hallways, i'm seeing someone else remember, and i'm not like most of the other gay guys i know in des moines, but he was nice. it was nice to meet someone new that actually had things to say. we talked for like 20 minutes straight about actual things. and we had just met. we did exchange info though, and the guy i am seeing knows that, and knows that it is decent and casual, and i wasn't trying to hook up. he was kewl.

well, thats it for now. maybe this will help get me back into the swing of things and also prove to those of you who were wondering, that yes, i am still alive. thanks for your concern and your blog encouragemnet. ;]

love ~ cody tyler