with eyes at newly tanned feet he said sorry. more out of habit than anything else. they were talking about hanging out with him. he had just never heard the words out of new mouths. they had to tell him it was a hell of a complimnet. in the tone of funny he said, "yes" and "thank you i'm used to saying sorry when people talk about hanging out with me." then they described the fun they had had with him that day. believing that getting invlved in it too much would turn it around, kill it even, he looked at tanned feet again pretending to read the independent weekly thinking of all of the people he had thought that about, all of the people he'd said that to. and with as much in trying he had. he just couldn't put himself in that same category. but he smiled at them and enjoyed that one moment. he was okay if they didn't follow through or not. it was atleast said outloud. atleast once in his life new mouths told him of how they wanted to spend more time with him. that they wanted to "hang out" with him "more often." to be exact. this is one of the times he felt needed. even if it did only last 79 seconds.
so things are still good. people are starting to hook up all around me and my relationship has developed a kink. well the other side of my relationship formed a kink. my camper was extremely difficult, but it was just like the old days. i have battle wounds all over my hands and arms, and i'll have the scars to prove it when i return. ultimately he is a sweetheart but communication was a problem with him. and it frustrated him. a lot. i did very well seperating my personal life and my obligation to this beautiful misunderstood human being. it all tuned out excellent in the end. but now its time for rest and relaxation....and more importantly...tonight....cody is going to get drunk for the first time in north carolina!! and he desrves to. it'll be fun...i'm sure i'll have stories.
love ~ cody tyler
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