goings on:

yesterday was my brother's 27th birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAD!!
stella is moving to new york on sunday.
i saw tanner for like five minutes, i am moving away, he doesn't bother to say goodbye to me.
there really was only a 50-50 chance of a goodbye anyway.
60-40 chance actually.
i hardly saw claire the last few days i was in de mo.
this happened last time.
i understand why.
the wonderful person i met either got too over bearing or i got scared and started pushing or both.....but i know for sure he did get too overbearing ;] ...."you are really beautiful." (five minutes later) "man you really are hot." (five minutes later) "i'm sorry but you are really beautiful right now." and i woke up in the middle of the night to him trying to hump my ass crack.....RUDE!
and a little bit creepy.
yeah, a little bit.
i'm moving back to iowa city.
again.
i had an interview in iowa city and they want me and i'm pretty much gauranteed a job.
duh.
i spent money i didn't even have.
weird.
i ate like 16 different helpings of 16 different foods, for free, all in one setting.
weird.
i didn't pay for anything except gas money.
awesome.
dude.
i had a very uncofortable experience with said "wonderful person" because of him, his roommates, a mysterious bug, and other things.
i darnk the other night and never want to drink again.
i have never been that dehydrated in my life.
i am never having sex again and "wonderful person" has just reminded me of my never wanting to even though i thought he was going to try and force it on me...or should i say in me.
sick.
i can't wait to sleep.
a freind of mine doesn't like to speak to me anymore because he thinks i am a wasted face loser.
that can be true.
that can also be sad that i can say that.
that said friend doesn't realize how much i would appreciate someone like him back in my life.
i wish i could be like him.
i will be like that.
another friend won't talk to me cuz he told me he still wants to be with me. when i said the same thing to him( a few months ago) he didn't speak to me for over 6 months.
i think hes mad at me for it.
confusing, heh?
i need to go now cuz this blog is dumb.
different.
wish me luck in my future. i'm looking forward to doing things differently this time around. i really am.
love ~ cody