because the lack of support and appreciation has lead me to believe that it is no longer there.

if it ever was.

hey anonymous,
if you want it you got as long as you clarify who you may be because i'm not seeing anyone appreciating the support and appreciation i have provided....except for the ones who have. and you obviously don't feel like i am to you.... look back a little ways in my blog when i talk about people who comment anonymously....cuz thats how i feel...you know how to make me feel differently.

so the past week has been very confusing. with the combination of friends, peole in general my mother being ill with three different things all of which are iffy right now, and just me and people in general....lets just say, i could have been worse this week. but i did well. and i'm doing even better. last night i was asleep by 10:30 pm thats awesome even if it is on a friday night. this week i could only sleep 2 - 3 hours a night. it was rough. but i fixed that.

i'm heading out to des moines in a few. i have to make myaself up to be mary kate olsen tonight. good thing i have lost ten pounds since i moved here! now i just need to tone...for myself...not for the m.k. look.
i'm out. everyone have a safe and happy halloween!

love ~ cody