things.

things are going on in my life. some huge some small. some good some bad.

first off i would like to say that camp starts in exactly 4 months and i can hardly wait. but before i go to camp i have decided i need a little reunion first. actually we all kind of decided since so many of us would be near the same place the same time. i'm going to colombia south carolina feb 25th - 28th for missy's b.day. and we are going to rosa's while i'm there, and swap is most likely coming down too and jess is going to come! the only person missing, and i am deeply saddend by this, is anna. anna get your ass on a plane!! its going to be great. and missy's friend michael that i have been speaking to a lot on the phone is going to join us too.

other good things that are going on....i got really fat while i was house sitting. (ok thats not really a good thing) i gained 10lbs in 2 weeks, thats just not healthy. so i did all of this talk about getting rid of it cuz i need to before i g to s.c. and all that. well it wasn't working until one day i was standing in my bathroom in just my manties (thats man panties if you didn't get it) and i saw the profile of my entire body. lets just say for the record i'm not "too fat to function" and i'm probably not even fat....but i shouldn't have this body until i am like 60 or something. i saw an old mans body in the mirror. now some of you might say, "well cody, you are gettin' up there!" and to you i say, fuck that noise. i'm nowhere near there and my body doesn't need to be either. we are talking scrawny little arms, scrawny little legs (except for my calves, my calves will always be the most toned, most muscular, best part of my body...i guess...they happen to be the only part of my body i approve of.) a saggy little butt, and this saggy, droopy, old man pudgy belly. oh yeah and don't forget my titts! (that almost fit into my friend alli's bra-zier!- shes like a d or something! ;]) so that was all it took. now i am trying to eat less. and i am exercising as much as i possibly can. i actually enjoy, minus the cold, walking to work and back because it gives me extra exercise. i'm going to get back in to shape. and i mean actual shape, not just appear to be in shape like i was when i did a lot of drugs. its going to be harder than it ever was since i don't do those drugs anymore but its all good. if i don't do it now i never will and i have already seen my future body and it will only get worse from there.

now some of you are probably saying...cody, whatever you are so damn skinny, but just remember you haven't seen me naked, most of you...ok well some of you, and you wouldn't want to now. just trust that i know what i am talkign about. yes, i have always had a destorted body image but that image has never changed its been the same for almost 10 years until the other day in the bathromm.

i managed to distort my distorted body image?

on with other things. i have lumps. one went away. they said it was a pocket of infection, for lack of a better word in place of the disgusting one. but now i have a lump in my left breast. yes, a lump in my left breast. we had a scare that i had breast cancer when i was in middle school, along with a scare about everything else, [those were my sickest years, naturally] but i'm pretty sure this is not breast cancer it grew too fast and is growing too fast. i believe it is yet another pocket of infection. some say it might be from coffee. i used to not drink any coffee or any thing with cafien (my mind is a little tired cuz i ran here but i can't think of how to pell that) but when i cut back on my drinking after my o.dub. i started drinking coffee like it was going out of style. pots a day. nothing like cross addicting! ;] well a girl i know, thats right a girl, had the same problem. same kind of lumps. and if its not that i'll just ask them to cut both titts off. atleast that solves the problem of my manboobs!

anyway, i need to get back to my place. there is a guy there changing my locks and i kind of want to be there when he gets done so i know i got the keys. that and hes totaly a hotty domestic. in a dirty jesus sort of way. lets just say hes the twin brother of jesus you could lust after. since you aren't supposed to lust after jesus. i guess you aren't really supposed to lust after anyone cuz we were created in the image of god and Him and all that...

by the way, read Many Lives Many Masters. its by some doctor and it is a true story. i want to be put under because of this book...i have to its one of my goals now.

alright, i'm out. time to run some more then i need to come back downtown and get some things before i walk to work!

i get to go to s.c. in one month. and i get to go back to n.c. in 4 months.

love ~ cody

p.s. oh yes, i went to des moines this past weekend i'll have to write about it later.
buh bye.