laundry day...

in a lot of ways, mostly just the full clothes basket along with a full duffle bag of dirty clothes - walk a mile to get to the laundromat day. thats right. its a pretty good jog and i cannot say that my laundry was light. it is a beautiful day again however.

but someone tell me - what the fuck is the point of wind like this?!

fo'real.

mostly things are good though. although right now i am going to unload a bit things are really good. in most areas. but i'm feeling a bit overwhelmed and intimidating in the moving (and all that i'm trying to plan with it) and o.dub chapters. especially jail. boredom is not a friend of mine, especially in enclosed places that i can't leave. (just ask claire about the storm shelter in the summer of 2000) i've finally admitted to myself that a couple of my friends that really make me feel bad and insufficient have absolutely no idea they do so. and what the hell can you do with that. my grandma's boyfriend has prostate cancer and it might have spread to his bones already. this makes me very sad. and one thing that constantly lingers over me is my doubt. doubt in self and in others. it especially annoys me when i know my doubt is absolutely wrong. or is it... (thats the phrase most often repeated in my head when trying to talk myself out of any doubt.)

today is my day off and i am thankful for it. when i leave here i am going to treat myself to an everything bagel with veggie cream cheese and a coffee. yum. i guess i am done for now. i got nothin'.....else.

love ~ cody tyler