so our once beautiful circle has been broken because of two of them that are together and chose to isolate themselves from everyone else. and if they aren't isolating themselves then they are putting on a gross display of their (not so healthy) realtionship... as in he pouts and controls then she'll whine and baby. its rediculous. he is nowhere near who he was last year...a straight man i adored - whole heartedly. and she is just a glimpse of herself these days. it would be different if their relationship seemed worthwhile or remotely healthy but most of the time they are just whisper arguing to each other about who doesn't want the other to do what or who wants the other to do what. its rather pathetic. i will be sitting down with them soon to tell them why i am pretty much avoiding them when they are actually around. i feel bad but i need to tell them.
anna and i spend a lot of time together. i think we are going to cling to eachother a bit this year cuz we are THE gay people. i'm realizing in my older years ( ;] ) that there are certain things i need in my life that maybe a camp cannot provide for me. especially a camp that is in the middle of bumbfuck and "you sure got a purty mouth". don't get me wrong its beautiful but there are some shady spots. and i don't mean shady as in shade tree, more like shady as in true backwoods cow crossing street sign shady. its true i saw my first cow crossing sign yesterday... just like a deer crossing only with a picture of a cow, or was it a bull, on it instead.
most of this is just because i have too much time on my hands because i am a returning counselor and we aren't as busy as the new counselors. when camp gets in full swing i'll go back to my original true appreciation of this place. if not it is my duty to leave becasue i will not be able to provide the true 100% good service i know i am capable of. i should go. bye peeps.
love ~ cody tyler
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