recap...

interesting weekend... friday there was a birthday party at sarahs again for jackie and swap this time. swap hung on me a bit like old times, massaged my injured shoulder, got wasted quick (lyndsey called him a one beer queer - hilarious.) and then he told me he missed me. to which i replied - and i'm sure he doesn't remember - "you should..." it was fun though. jackie got absolutely wasted and the most used phrase that fell out of her mouth that night and for most of the weekend was, "its my birthday." or, "f. that its my birthday!" once again i was one of the soberest, but did end up breaking down mildly to rosa (about a certain subject i hardly address to myself) after thinking my feelings had been a bit hurt or that they could be as some people might like to say.

saturday the original plan was to lay out go get our hair cut and colored and all that then go out to the gay bar in raleigh. well it ended up us laying out...i'm super dark now i need to start wearing sunblock for once in my life. then we found out all of the hair places closed at 5pm so we missed that but my hair is almost blonde already anyway so i don't know what i will do with it. then our gay bar plans got messed up cuz not everybody wanted to go to the gay bar. weird. its alright for them to not want to go to the gay bar but when i say i don't want to go to a ghetto place like oxygen they act as if i'm a fuckin' gay leprachaun and they had no idea. so once again i back down and put myself on the back burner to not be an asshole. but after we payed $8 to get in to this shit hole and saw what we were dealing with jackie and i were ready to go. so to get our cover worth we did 3 or 4 shots and had 3 beers in 30 minutes and then left to go to were we originally were going to go and only told our ride. and i am so glad we did. we walked to the other bar - it was only 3 blocks away- and right away knew it was going to be a better time. shortly after we got there we heard our song. i had just said to jackie the night before that i bet kelly osbornes new song gets remixed right away and played in the gay clubs everywhere! well we heard it right after we got there and right before we left. we crused all over the bar, jackie did the roger rabbit while i did my slow autistic version of it. we danced we drank. and then right before we were leaving we made friends, people finally came up and spoke to us. andre and dean. we hun out with them and decided that since we came to understand that our ride had left and we would just get a cab to jackies car later that we would go to afterhours at andres. we did, dean didn't show up but we stayed up and talked outside of his apartment til 4:30am and played with his dogs and then passed out around 5:30 and had to be back to camp by noon. which raleigh to pittsborro is about a 40 - 45 minute drive. jackie and i left raleigh around 11:40/11:45 am and made it back by 12:02pm. oops, i guess she was speeding a bit... needless to say i had a bit of a headache all of sunday. it went away in time for me to go to sleep so lucky me!

all is well, rosa did a good thing by not bringing up my last-minute-before-bed-breakdown (from friday night) on saturday or since then for that matter. and we made a new friend who plans to hang out with us more. yea!! by the way andre has a mowhawk and its the kind i have been wanting for a while... so i guess i won't be getting it right away. anyway, good weekend all together.

buh bye.

love - cody