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so as i joyrode through the air, weaving in around and through clouds, i ended another summer love affair. or shall i say affairs. my continuing love affair with north carolina haunts my mind at all times. wonder overwhelms me as i ask myself if i've made the right choices since my equivlent of rebirth. and again. is it my happy place. my safest place? my home? and what about the human love affairs? the ones i fall in love with as people, true and genuine, that become such great close friends. the ones i model myself after and search for in others. or the ones that didn't get close enough. and the ones that got close just before we had to part ways. leaving me with the deadening feeling of what might have been. we all say keep in touch. but i'd rather have my perfect world where we would all be in the same place or atleast within miles. shorter distances for more frequent visits.
i didn't cry, not this time. nor am i as sad as i was last. this year was different. segregated by human nature cuz ours was for the beautiful ones. i'd like to wish we are all like this in our real existences. but everyone knows that can't always be possible. but i'm pretty sure my lack of emotion is because i know that we will see eachother soon. maybe in november, maybe at the turn of the new year. but sooner or later we'll be in the same room as if nothing has changed. and later we'll go to eachothers weddings, visit eachother for bithdays or graduations or other like events. hell, maybe we'll be rommates at some point, even if only for a short period of time or to get back on our feet. so unil then, i love you, i miss us. and i'll remain me. we'll see eachother soon.

love - cody tyler

red, you creep in with frequent aggression. overpowering most and sometimes the new....what the fuck did you do. to me. a familularity like my own hands, like my childhood. and now i fear it may be lost. like you said. "see you on our next adventure..." - i can't wait to.