wow blogger....

there is a reason other than laziness for why i haven't been blogging recently. yes laziness is involved but every time i go to blogger and try to post and do things with my blog i always seem to have some sort of trouble. and i don't believe its on my end cuz d. and i have some of the best interent possible. i usually can never upload my pictures the way i want to among many other things as little as creating a simple post. so i'm not sure what is going on...

i hope that if there is anyone out there left that actually looks at this thing enjoyed miss courtney love. i had a lot of fun with her. i actually had 3 costumes again this year so it was a very good halloween for me. halloween is my favorite holiday!

the new madonna album is absolutely amazing. how do i know you ask since it doesn't come out til the 15th. lets just say there are plenty of ways for you to hear it for yourself. its fucking great! i am obsessed. and i ca't wait til it comes out. but i am going to wait cuz i am going to wait for the bonus album that comes out about one month after the regular. theres a few little extra things going on with it so i feel its worth waiting for.

in other madonna related news. i am going to see my fellow madonna obsessed good friend of mine in new york city! yea! i can't fucking wait. i haven't been to new york city since april of 2002. thats rediculous. plain and simple. we are going to celebrate our birthdays together. his birthday is exactly one week after mine. so yes from december 2nd through the 9th i will be in new york city. i'm so excited i might shit myself. i have a feeling the 9th is going to be a sad sad day for me. (cuz i'll be coming back here)

which leads me to the topic of here. notice i'm calling it here instead of home. i'm in a very odd place about my surroundings right now. not just location either. and i feel gulity about it for some reason. well maybe cuz i'm lead to feel that. i constantly am feeling a struggle with most people around me. a struggle of one ups. i feel like some of the people around me continuously try to one up me with EVERY situation. whether bad or good. i'll state something that happened to me that i feel is really good and then almost before i even finish my sentence they are telling me of something that happened to them thats just that much better. or something shitty that happens to me they've got something shittier. i know it sounds kind of petty but its getting to the point of where i truly limit what i say around certain people. i'm not trying to compete with you. we aren't in any kind of competition. i understand we all have our joys and our heartaches but when did letting you know about my day become a "whose is worse or whose is better." so because of this and other things i have become horribly disenchanted with many things in my world. don't get me wrong i'm not moping around or anything. i'm generally happy - hell i'm alive and i do have great people in my life.

thanksgiving is coming up which means cody will just get large and not so much in charge! meghan and jared are having a thanksgiving for friends on the 19th. how cute are they. i'm incharge of the mashed potatoes. mmmmm.... i can't wait.

alright. i'm out.
peace.

love ~ cody tyler