i'd rather have my "special someone" suprise me with gifts any other day but valentines day. and its not cuz i'm bitter or what have you. i just think its a bit rediculous. if the relationship is right and good every day should feel like valentine's day. the person, the relationship - should be gift enough, huh?
so i've finally come to my senses. sorry chad. thanks though. this weekend proved everything (if there was anything left to prove that it wasn't going to work) that needed to be proved. first off i have to say that i had an absolute blast on friday! the show was amazing! and it was very sureal to have almsot everyone back together again. but it still wasn't the same with out mitchel in the show and claire and travis with us. it was so much fun though. so craig decided on saturday that he would come down.... in a way i wish he wouldn't have but in a way i'm glad he did cuz everything was fiannly revealed to myself and there was no making excuses for anything anymore. i was sacrificing myself, losing cody. now i have me back. and i'll be nice, i'll be civil, if he calls or tries to make contact. but even after the "i ike you so much and i just don't think you realize" and the "i fuckin' love you" that was slipped a couple times.....come on now, craig.... but after all that there was still no one elses feelings in mind except his. and on top of this i had fallen ill that night (as in flu like) i had a temp and all that and that didn't not seem to concern him. he was dissapoitned there was no sex, he was disappointed that i wouldn't cater to him, he was disappointed that people talked to me in des moines - i used to live there for 2 years for christ sake, i know a lot of people! it was way too much. so i made it back to iowa city and the rest is history. this time i promise you i am done bitching and moaning about him.
my friend erica had her baby on saturday while i was gone. i haven't gone to see them yet since i have been super ill. :[
i work from 7pm - 3am tonight, i'm training for the over night. i felt so bad missing work yesterday but i absolutely could not go in. my fever was nasty and i felt like a pile.
anyway, just wanted to touch base!
hope everyone has a great day whether you celebrate the holiday or not!
i love you all.
love ~ codes
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Cody, feel better! I hate "feeling like a pile." Not totally sure what went on with you and Craig, but if you follow your gut, I believe, it's hard to go wrong.
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