nc strange pt.1

Some strange things since moving to n.c.

1. I hardly see the people I used to associate with North Carolina.

2. I came here to work for the autism society of n.c. and no longer work for them…

3. The host of the first party I went to since living here, and the 2nd gay person I met I am now dating and living with. I actually just met his family… yeah…. Me. It’s still weird to me too. But I normally would not be living with him already but I am moving at the end of the summer and it saves us both money and we were staying with each other all the time anyway.

4. The reason I remember the detail is because I thought he was beautiful.

5. Anna and I used to be like brother and sister but she stopped talking to me because (and this is just how it seemed and from things she said to others) because her girlfriends brother wanted to get with my boyfriend (at the time)

6. Before I moved I said I was going to have a bearded boyfriend when I moved here. I got him. His name was josh. He cheated on me and lied about it. He blamed the “friends” he accumulated during said tryst on his female cokehead best friend’s couch. Then told me a week later he was falling in love with me and wanted me to be his actual boyfriend. then a week later told me he took it back saying, “well what if we want to get to know other people…?” then maybe not even a week later I call him out for hitting on a guy in front of me and he doesn’t like it and apologizes to the guy about me. When I told the guy “who the fuck I was” since he asked he cowered and apologized repeatedly. Then josh threatens to “beat my ass” I ask him what he says and he repeats it so I go inside to make sure it doesn’t happen and he comes in yelling to everyone that I threaten to beat his ass and that I am crazy which makes me flip a cookie since it is a lie and I pride myself on not being a violent. (unless I am hit in the face by and adult without disabilities then I have no control.) Meanwhile the managers are telling me he’s crazy and kicking him out but when they turn around he proceeds to mouth “you’re fuckin crazy” while staring at me and doing the crazy sign with his finger to the side of his head. Oh yeah and then lingered in the parking lot for the next hour and got in the car of my friend thinking he would go with us. Then some nasty delusional texts and then he admitted to doing all of it two days later on my porch with my roommate in her room hearing (whether he knew or not I am not sure) and blaming the whole thing on me being irrational because I called him out. Gross. And then I got rid of my bearded delusional boyfriend.

7. The whole Tim situation. Wow the things boys will say when they are afraid of being alone or trying to compete or realize they are unhappy or controlling or used to getting what they want or spoiled and or any of those other qualities joined with not being able to look within yourself for the answers to your problems. I hope one day he actually tries.

8. I am a paid artist now…!

9. I just may be burnt from human services.

10. I hardly remember camp as being something that happened here. It seems so far away and so much more beautiful to be able to associate it with here.