full circle

i want the good life. but i don't want an easy ride. what i want is to work for it. feel the blood and sweat on my fingertips thats what i want for me.
i want to know everything. maybe someday i will. what i want is to find my place. breath the air and feel the sun on my childrens face thats what i want.
i go round and round just like a circle. i can see a clearer picture. when i touch the ground i come full circle to my place. and i am home.
i am home.
i want to let go of all disappointment thats waiting for me. what i want is to live forever. not defined by time and space, its a lonely place, thats what i want.
i go round and round just like a circle. i can see a clearer picture. when i touch the ground i come full circle to my place and i am home.
i am home.
~ if you know me you know who wrote it.

i'm ready to touch the ground and come full circle more than i have ever known. especially to be able to say i am home. i think i need to find exactly where to focus my energy. i'm glad i am hanging out with claire tonight through sunday. she always seems to help whether she realizes it or not. you'd think that since my actual job is caring for others and focusing all my energy on theat person while i am there that when i came home i would focus more on myself. but i haven't. i've always focused on others. its a problem that happens in the field of work that i am in. you care for others as a carreer and it makes it that much easier to not care for yourself. i know a lot of different examples of people's balance that is off in this field. i'm creating balance. i will touch ground and come full circle to my place. i will find home.

love ~ cody

chicago, here we come!