Reminder:

(to the wonderful one who let me know, i appreciate it, cuz i do understand where you are coming from with it, but its not necessarily accurate. you just care. thank you. explanation follows.)

i have become aware that my blog is yet again, and/or still deceiving. once again my blog is not my permanent thought. not my permanent feeling. it is exactly what i am feeling or just thinking of at the exact moment that i write it. and usually something triggers me to sit down and write. the reason one topic gets talked about so much is because the topic keeps coming up. whether i am involved anymore or not. and the fact that i care about people whether i'm still friends with them or not makes me feel things when its brought up. there are things that it may appear i am not "over" even though i say i am. but truly i am. its just a matter of living in the same town. knowing the same people, going to the same places. the only way for a topic to never come up again after me saying i am over it is if i were to completely avoid it and all that goes along with. but thats not me. like many times before for me to get over things i feel the need to through myself right in the middle of it and then i will be rid of it. i will prove to myself i can go without. i'm an "surround myself with it until it makes me physically ill" kinda' guy. especially when its something i don't want to do but have to. a.k.a. when people i love are involved. just thought i would explain it a bit encase other people were feeling the same way about my blog as a friend of mine was.

p.s. wine makes me a little bit angrier than i ever intend to be.

so tomorrow is st. patty's day! i'm heading to iowa city right after work. i'm going to the britney spears concert with my grrl meghan on thursday. its going to be fuckin' insane cuz she is in love with her. i don't know which show will be better, britney's or meghan's! i'll let you know when i get back. and i get to hang out with my friend erica too. its going to be a good next couple of days! i just wish i had more money.

well, i should get going. i need to do dishes. yea! i'm so excited!

love ~ cody