my sadness begins with my happiness.

so on friday it was my friend emily's going away party. shes joining the peace corps and moving to africa for 2 years. i met emily at camp 4 years ago and used to hang out with her in iowa city a lot. even more so after my friend josh died. she was a huge support for me at the time and i love her for that. i always will. emily is nothing shy of an amazinly giving and loviing, caring extrodinary woman. and she happens to be one of the cutest things i ever did see. the party was perfect, i wouldn't have it any other way except for maybe it not being because she is leaving. it made me miss her right away, and i used to hang out with a lot of the people that were there through her and they are all really good people. right when i walked in the drunk one as i call her because she almost beat me up the first time i met her because she thought i took her keys because none of us wanted her to drive.... she called me every name (including some of the ones you were already thinking of after me saying that) except cody...i walk in to the going away party and she slithers over to me and yells out, "oh my god cody! see i remembered your name this time you stupid bitch!" and then preceeded to apologize (for the 7th time ) about when she didn't remember my name. but actually all of em's friends are great people. when they are all together you can tell they give a shit about eachother. so it made me think of the people like that around me. but way to go em! good luck to you and let me know how it goes along the way. i love you.

i went with claire, sarah and kelli. which was perfect also. we drank, we played darts, we drank, we chatted about shit, we chatted about important things. and we drank. ;] claire and i had a few great minitalks about me leaving and her b.day and all that other shit that makes me sad right now.... eghh...i hate goodbyes. i know i know its only for the summer (as of now) but i'm a people lover. i just found out yesterday that i am going to miss sarah's 21st b.day now too. damn. anyway, it was a great time that made me think and remember a lot of things. most that make me smile with my heart and some that make me sad becasue they make me smile with my heart. i should get back to packing....yea!

i love you.
love ~ cody