you know who you are. i was bringing maturity into the situation and you chose not to hear it or even try to hear it. i'm done with the old situation. and as for the new, i chose to stay out of it because i don't know who is who or what is what and frankly i don't give a fuck. you know why? because i am leaving on saturday. and i don't want things to be fucking rediculous. i'm guesing you had some outside influence on this tonight. and sorry to say but thats sad if its true. because those two don't know me like you do. they both only know their infatuation. damn, my intentions for tonight were so good. and they were not even glanced at.
HERE'S ME BEING VULNERABLE TO YOU, TAKE IT ALL IN CUZ AFTER THE WAY YOU CHOSE TONIGHT TO END ITS THE LAST YOU'LL SEE FROM ME TO YOU.
words that made me think of you at one time or another:
"strange, thought i knew you well. thought i had read the sky. thought i had read a change in your eyes. so strange. woke up to a world that i am not a part except when i can play its stranger. after all what were you really looking for. and i wonder when will i learn blue isn't red everybody knows this. and i wonder when will i learn. when will i learn. guess i was in deeper than i thought i was if i had enough love....for the both of us." - tori amos
"maybe this is forever, forever fades away. like a rocket ascending into space. could you not be sad. could you not break down. after all i won't let go, until you're safe and sound. until you're safe and sound. theres beauty in release, theres noone left to please but you and me." - sheryl crow
"if you're lost you can look and you will find me. time after time. if you fall i will catch you i'll be waiting. time after time. " - cyndi lauper
"if you ever show me that you need me i'll be there in a second" - c.t.
didn't i say that? didn't i. i worry but i guess i shouldn't. not after tonight. did i hang up on you when you called? no, but i could have. easier than you did tonight. but i don't hang up on people. after all you were the one that created all of this. you finally admitted to that when you called me. remember? i never stopped caring and you know that. you may not want to believe it but you know its true. how could i? you know me....i'm not like that. i'm not a surface fag like all the rest.... anyway, goodnight. i'm done with this. hope you have a great summer. cuz i don't know if i am coming back for good or not. i'm guessing/hoping not. so i only have a few more days left here. i tried. you chose to fail it.
love ~ cody tyler
as for everyone else who reads this...don't worry, don't ask. cuz you won't get anything out of me. i'm done talking about the situation. i'm done writing about it too. i'm done with it, i wash my hands of it.
all of you who are coming tomorrow (tonight), i love you. thank you so much you have no idea what it means to me. and i can't wait!!
i love you all. (and yes you too)
love ~ cody tyler
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