i've never been good at saying goodbye

but my going away party was a hit. we (about 15ish of us) were all trashed out. missing teeth, mullets, bad makeup, pitstains, farmer tans, flannel and a hat with two beers on the side with one long straw....you know what i'm talking about. the best part about it is that we all went out in public to the bar for $10 all you can drink, and all we could drink we sure did. i actually maintained a nice drunk state without getting wasted all night. as in until sunrise. it was great. we owned the bar that night. our party immediately doubled if not tripled the population when we walked in. and let me tell you the other customers had no idea what to think. or how to act. everytime i walked by them i just flashed them my gapped tooth, chipped smile. i couldn't ask for a better going away party. except some important people were missing but they had important things to take care of. so thats ok.

tonight i'm having dinner with my number 2. i've already cried about 6 times in the past 24 hrs. so i don't see whats going to stop me from doing so while i'm with claire. then i need to meet up with lyle one last time (hopefully claire comes with) so i can give him back a couple of shirts of his that i have.

ughh. i'm not looking forward to this. this being the actual goodbye. i know for now it is only a couple of months but, well i am just not good at it. i get it from my mother.

this will be my last blog for atleast 2 weeks because i don't have next weekend off so.... i love you all. i'll miss you. i'll miss writing in this thing whenever i want to.

wish me luck. i love you.

thanks t. for last night, it means a lot to me. i guess we'll just have to wait and see.

love ~ cody tyler