this is pointless.

yes its pointless.

if i believed, i might follow through. 

but i don't believe so i have to make do.

with this life.

this life unliving.

this life unnoticed.

how did it get to this.

the half sighs

the half phone calls

the half conversations

someone told me to find something thats worth it.

five months til then won't cut it.

don't know if its worth it

the only life worthy.

and the one who makes me feel anything anymore

doesn't know it

is miles away.

doesn't deserve the depth of this

not laid on him like this.

i'll never uncover this

to him

to us

to our voices

i thank him though.

god, you love to turn my little blue world upside down.

in my heart i hear a voice.

it goes chatter, chatter, chatter , chatterchatter

and you say i've always been

still comin' outtta' my mother

upside down.

but i nver did, i came straight up and out.

so...

"spirit is very fragile, broken easily but not impossible to mend"