boys to my left, boys to my right. boys through my middle yet you're not really here.
wheres my loan from the old school zone? never here never there never where i'm shown.
if you cant tell me when you need me what can you tell me. yet i cater to you.
which in turn means nothing to you. cuz you expect my concern - expect my rescue.
im tired and this hell is hiding well. but i still got your friends binding my foots yes.
the feeling of wanting to end this segment, never being so strong as not wanting to hurt you.
yet all you can see is an agreement while you tell me one and what they want to hear said.
two lives once parrallel deviding through black wood. i given everything you want.
but the old can't be forced to shell. cuz i've never been one to fake inside all you flaunt.
this second machine is a new one to me.
never have i ever willingly.
and i have no regret.
but i cannot forget.
this feeling afterwards.
i said cuz i didn't know.
that the other side would never show.
but i put myself in a place.
and suddenly i was gone without a trace.
into the whole of you.
it all felt good at the time.
no reason but for sure some rhyme.
i layed a pile into your lap.
knowing we could not give back.
our selfish feelings of defeat.
my slumber slips through your oblivion.
my bones and flesh feel like a ton.
i long for absolutely no one around.
so i can tend to this machine that i found.
within the whole of me.
just when i love one end the other seems to filter off.
i have no right to do these things if only it weren't for my past.
but that alone makes the unworthy devil grown.
cuz not even i know how long it or i will last.
it takes everything out of me in more ways then one.
this third machine that i run everday.
i never feel progress just a steady drum.
but it rips at my heart and my soul is to pay.
just thoughts about things that happen around me. things that consume and surround me.
love me - Cody Tyler
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